Learning To Love Someone Special

I raised my kids as a single mom and had no special man in my life since my youngest, Sara was little.  Then after observing single moms, who were friends, bring men into their childrens lives only to have the guys disappear and leave the kids sad and confused, I decided that I did not want my boys and Sara to have that confusion in their lives.  I took a vow before God that I would be celibate until I met a man that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.  Well I was surrounded by friends, male and female, but no single man ever made me feel that I wanted him around forever.  So I got on with my life, raising my children.  There were good times and bad, laughter and tears, frustration and joy.There were also great losses.  My two elder sons died and the pain of those losses in 1993 and 1998 was deep and lasting.  However, in September, 1993, I started college to study Library Information and Technology and graduated in 1996 near the top of my class.  Then job hunting went into high gear, but because I stayed home to raise the children, I had little experience.  I did find a job working in and mostly running a small home office and loved the work.  I catalogued my employers small library of books and CDs and videos, so I did use my training and improved my computer skills.  In the late summer of 1998, my employer gave me a computer and  two computer guys at my church looked it over, updated it and got me printer.  So I got on the web and started talking to people on a site called ICQ.  I made some online friends who still talk to me on Windows Messenger.  One funny, quirky guy from Halifax made me laugh every time we talked, which was soon daily.  Then in December 1999 I came to New Brunswick to spend the holidays with my parents and sister in Miramichi, in northern NB.  My quirky friend called me every day that I was there and at the end of each call, he told me that he loved me.  The night before I returned to BC he said that he loved me and I said that Ioved him, too.  Then I hung up and went to my room and thought I  DO love him.  NOW what!!  On Feb. 2, 2000, he asked me to marry him.  I was so shocked that I asked him if i could have some time to think about it.  After praying, talking to my closest friends and staying awake for most of the night, I called him back and said yes.  I had to talk to Philip and Sara, pack up the things that I wanted to keep, have a garage sale, say my good byes and get my train tickets.  On March 24th I left Vancouver and after 3 days with my family in NB, I arrived in Halifax on April 7, 2000.  Harold and I felt an instant connection but we decided to wait 2 years before we got married.  We got married on April 27, 2002 and are very happy together.  He is a kind, smart, funny, terrific man who takes great care of me and loves me with all of his heart.  I love him and always will for as long as God gives us.